Dont Judge me by my cover

You know that expression "don’t judge a book by a cover", well don’t judge me by mine.

I may not have the best looking exterior but it doesn’t define the person I am. It also doesn’t tell you the hidden struggles, what I have been through and my hidden features and talents.

You may have come into my life at a certain chapter but you haven’t seen or read my past chapters and you may never see my future chapters. I may be calm, cool and collected on the surface but what you don’t see is my legs kicking like crazy. You don't see the large rock holding me down that I am slowly trying to get rid of and stop my legs going crazy. 

You see even my cover can tell you a different story from what I am feeling on the inside or what I am going through. I can put a smile on my face and not feel happy.

I may not look like there is anything wrong with me and I have a perfect life but I can assure you I don’t, I do have it better than a lot of other people. You will not always see a disability on a person and we may have some good days but we have a lot of bad days and obstacles we have to go through daily.  Every day there are reminders things are not perfect but we have to make the best out of things.

I have Psoriatic Arthritis, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue. There are days I feel 100% and then I get the reminder I can’t do everything I wanted to do. Not only that but my immune system has been taken down to where I can catch anything that is going around its those hidden things I have to think of when I am out and take precautions so I don’t get sick.  

Time and time again we see those people who attack someone who looks perfectly fine when they are using disability parking either by a note or confrontation. Don’t get me wrong I know that people use it and don’t have one and just think they are entitled to park wherever they want however, there are people who don’t have a visible disability that need to use it. Those with  heart problems, MS, Cystic Fibrosis, Arthritis and many more, you don’t need to be on crutches or in a wheelchair. 

I may not be a model / skinny person but I am passionate, polite, kind hearted, smart, beautiful, funny, talented, a writer, sweet natured kind of person. Yes I said beautiful because we all are, it doesn’t matter about your size, nationality, religion, height, skin type or colour. Believe me ladies you are all gorgeous don’t let anyone let you think differently.

I have been bullied all my life for not only the way I look but because I see the world a different way and that I am unique and it’s not easy to deal with but I took it and I am still the person I was from the start just a lot smarter, wiser and stronger than I was before.